bounce

now I've thought about it some more, listened to some music (a lot), watched some videos, the works, and I realized that one thing I would've loved to do and I'm sorry I didn't pursue, was dancing. I don't mean going to the disco on a Saturday night dancing. not ballroom, either. the 'step up' 1, 2, and gazillion kind of dancing. the rebel school outlet dancing. I kinda think it's a bit late to take it up at 37 going on 38. what I'm even more pissed off at myself for is that I haven't even done the Saturday night disco dancing in a VERY long time. I used to, and some very cruel person laughed at me and made me feel very self conscious. I shouldn't have let her screw with my head that way (and many other ways) but I did. and then I gained some weight and I thought I'd just look ridiculous there on the dance floor and everyone would look at me with pity because I'm awkward. and every time there was a dancing situation I'd be so stiff and try to control every move I made that I'd end up being exhausted and completely unsatisfied. I have to change that. along with every other change that I have to put myself through, this is definitely on the list, way up there. build my self confidence. just lose the weight first :)
I know that really hasn't got anything to do with dancing, but it does with my confidence.