long time no see

Haven't written in quite a while. It's been quite hectic and a lot of stuff has happened. None of which I'm going to talk about right now. Well, ok, there's ONE thing I want to share. A while back (not very far back at all, in fact) I was seriously considering therapy because I needed it and I probably still do. BUT: I think, for now, there's no better therapy than taking care of two dogs - one with abandonment issues and a puppy with "I wanna eat all the time and chew on everything, including your toes, your hair, my older brother's ears, etc." issues. I don't mind the waking up at 2:30 in the morning (well, probably because I'm not the only one taking care of dem babies, but that's beside the point, ahem), I don't mind following the little bugger all around the house to catch him in the act of peeing (and more) wherever and whenever the fancy strikes, I don't mind the diaper duty. In fact, I am thankful. The doggies give me the opportunity to think about something else than whatever new fear or complex I might develop and to feel kinda useful and all that good stuff that makes you feel good about yourself. So thank you, babies. You rock my world. And as it turns out, there's one more thing that I consider important enough to share, because it's both made me a better person (God, at least I hope so) and taken quite a load off my mind. Over the years, as it happens, that big group of friends you think you have gets smaller and smaller, and maybe through no fault of your own. Nothing new, we've all been there and as unpleasant as it might be, you just can't help it sometimes. So of course, that happened to me as well, a falling out here, a bad breakup there, you know, the works. And at some point in my recent life, I had a dream about the falling out and decided to make peace, hoping the other party feels the same and that we shall all live happily ever after. Long story short, it worked. And even though maybe it wasn't the most important thing in the world and it didn't hold me back and made my life all that miserable, it did bug me when thought about it. And when I fixed it, it felt good. Which goes to show that sometimes, even if it takes a dream to give you a little push, if you feel something is right, you should do it for yourself, if nothing else. And, as a friend told me, the secret is to have low expectations. I wouldn't normally agree with that, but when it comes to people, experience (not extremely vast, but the only one I got) has showed me that when it comes to people, it's best to just take it with a grain of salt. Healthy approach. Hard to follow, too, but hey, a little challenge never hurt anyone :) Anyway, before I forget what I was talking about, in a few days, I managed to restore two relationships - not to the factory settings, but at least I had some closure, for lack of a better word. And got my groove back, to boot, but that's another story for another time - maybe tomorrow, maybe never, we'll see :)

Tootles :)